if only i could explain it

that feeling

that desire

that wish something that would make sense in words

i am broken, hurt, confused

affectionate, fascinated with, crazy about

and i wish

i could just punch you in the face.

let it all out.

i have a strong addiction.

i dont wanna think about it.

but its a little too late.

ill just cry instead.

im in pieces.

shattered.

i wish i could just fly away.

but my obsession wont let me leave.

why does this have to happen to me.

cant have it.

but i guess ill just have to wait.